Love is funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard like when you fall in love with someone but they forget to love you back, like when your boyfriend or girlfriend treats you badly but you ask for their forgiveness and blame yourself instead, like when your lover proclaims to love you unconditionally but he or she just can’t stop criticizing you, like when you try to convince yourself that you are significant to your significant other despite the fact that he or she doesn’t even care about you. Love is funny sometimes, but you can’t laugh because it hurts so badly. Love is funny sometimes, but you can’t laugh because you are actually the laughingstock of it.
“T.H. White said, perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically… to those who hardly think about us in return.” Like a child who will always forgive his father for working so hard and always forgets his birthday, a mother who will always be waiting so patiently for her long lost SiTenggang to come home during Hari Raya, a lover who will always put up with the unattached, self-absorbed, pleasure-seeking partner who doesn’t know how to treat her right.
You know it's been said that we just don't recognize the significant moments of our lives while they're happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things or people and we take them for granted and it's usually not until that thing or person is about to be taken away from us that we've realized how wrong we've been, that we realized how much we need it, how much we love it. Like a father who has missed his son’s graduation, a mother who has had a miscarriage because of her alcohol and smoking habits, a narcissistic model who was so arrogant and in a blink of an eye has lost her beauty in an accident, a boyfriend who has taken his girlfriend for granted and when she finally decided to go, only then he started to miss her so badly. A breakup. A death.
Love is funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard but if you look close enough, you can find hope in the words of children, in the lyrics of songs and in the eyes of someone you love.
Love is funny sometimes, but if you're lucky, if you're really, really lucky, the person you love will to love you back.
Appreciate your loved ones today because tomorrow it might be too late.
Say "I love you" to them now cause you don't know what might happen later.
Cherish every moment you spend with them and keep it in your memory.
I feel a bit cranky and restless due to lack of sleep. Oh my, look at the damage Ive done to my self! Look at these eye bags, ugh! I've tried everything to shut my eyes to sleep so that i can recharge my energy and be in a good mood the next day. Even drinking milk and reading boring books don't work. I just can't friggin' sleep. Oh, shall I blame it on the internet- the distraction of modern life, for keeping me awake the whole night? Hello, insomnia. Nice to meet you, very 'nice' indeed. Ppppfffttt. Erratic sleep does take a toll on my health. Now I look like a zombie. A fat zombie. A very fat, fugly, boring zombie. Oh dear.
Btw, I'm thinking about cutting my hair short. I've always had long hair my whole life! So, I want to try a new look, with short hair. But 80% of the respondents disagreed. One particular respondent strongly disagreed, saying that I look friggin ugly with short hair. Menyampah gila tgk, burok gila ko rambut mcmtu (Accap, 2009). Tsk. Baik lah sy sedar (T_T) I received quite a number of comments about my short hair vs. long hair but i'm still confused.
You know, being 23 (or should i say, 24?) is really depressing. I feel old, really. During this time of the year, yes it's already december mind you, school holidays, semester break and whatnot, I've got soooo many wedding invitations from my dear friends! Oh come on, chillex! It is still quite early to get married, no? Teeet, wrong! Everybody is soooo getting married! And I started to freak out, really, seriously. What happens to I-want-to-pursue-my-phd-before-I-get-married or I'd-like-to-enjoy-my-single-life-a-little-longer or hey-i-don't-wanna-rush-into-things-and-i-want-to-keep-my-options-open? Smorg libido dah rising to the peak eh? *sigh356times* (cis, itu nama dia dah jodoh dan kau yg jodoh ntah bila nk sampai jgn nk jeles! -_-")
So I had this conversation with a friend, Q. And I told him that I've made a plan to escape. Like when december comes, I'll plan a getaway, hibernating in a cave or something. Tsk. Reality hurts but whattehell, I should just try to soldier on. It's okay darlings. I'll definitely go to your weddings. Mana tau berjumpa jodoh di
And oh it makes me wonder, if you have different life values/views with your partner, can you two be together, happily everrr afterrr? You know, like when you have different opinions on issues. You see things differently, you two have different perspectives on life. For me, it is okay. In fact, it can be a good thing, the catalyst of your relationship progression. I am argumentative. I like to argue, a lot. And I look up to a partner who takes a strong stand on what he think is right, who can come up with reasons to justify his claims and respects my opinions at the same time. And I like to ask, a lot. That way, I gain a lot of knowledge and useful inputs. And if he is wrong, or if he does not have the answer to my question, then he has to admit it and we can explore things together. It is a good thing, right? Like two magnets with different charges attracted to each other.
But what if the two of you just don't share the same outlook on what is important in life. You want different things in life. Your life's principles are different, like, your partner is a heavy smoker, he can't live without puffing tobacco and burning off his lungs and exhaling carbon monoxide, but you really think he should stop smoking because you don't wanna be a victim of second hand smoke, inhaling carbon monoxide thank you very much, which can cause you (and your cute kids) lung cancer. So, how would you deal with this kind of issue?
I think toleration is the key. Both parties have to tolerate and compromise. You can't just expect him to stop smoking right there and then. Give him time. It's not easy for a tobacco addict to stop smoking but that shouldn't be the excuse either. It's not easy but it is possible. Or, if you just can't compromise due to your health condition, then you have to find a partner who doesn't smoke ciggie, leaving him 2 options, losing you or stop smoking.
However, if the issues are on religious matters, then you should NOT compromise. Like, drinking alcohol. If dah kawen dan bakal atau sudah menjadi bapa pon still menoggak cheap beers (or expensive liquor), pergi clubbing budget kau bujang lagi dan tak mahu berubah, susah lah. Dude, you are the leader of the family, bear that in mind! Ppffftt.
And of course we have certain expectations or criteria that our partner has to meet
Most women tend to be blinded by the so-called strong feelings. Like, just by looking at him, your heart skips a beat and you can't seem to get him off of your mind 24/7, or just by hearing his name, you can't stop smiling. Is it love? You sooo want to marry this person and devote your life to him and have his babies! But wait, red alert, ladies! Don't just look at how do you feel about him, look at how he treats you. You have to varify your feelings with facts. If he can't treat you right, don't give yourself excuses like, "he doesn't call or text me, it doesn't mean he doesn't care, he is just busy." Pppffttt. (Sila baca "dia memang tidak sgt ke dalam kau" dan "awas, jangan dibelenggu lagi!")
Okay, he might have treated you well. But you also have to look at how he confronts a situation, how he deals with problems, how he tackles the mysteries of life, how he treats other people. He might be masking his actual behavior with all the sweet talks and "good deeds" to you just to win your heart, dear. Bila dah kawen, he will show his true colour. So, look for a partner who deals with the world in a way you respect.
Compatibility is really important, lovers! Look for a partner who can bring laughter to your life, who laughs with you, not who laughs AT you. Laughter brings magic to your relationship or marriage. Really. After a long day at work, when you have had a bad day, when everything didn't go your way, you just need a partner who can lighten you up, laughs together about that shit and makes you feel better.
Yes, getting married is like whohooo yay kawen!! But choosing the right partner to spend your whole life with, is FREAKING DIFFICULT. Getting married is not just about the licence to have legal sex, having cute babies, or having someone to do your laundry or cook for you. Marriage is a synonym of responsibility. And responsibility is a BIG word. It is all about responsibility and COMMITMENT. So, are you ready for the togetherness?
And for all the newlyweds, congratulations! May 'for better or worse' be far better than worse :)
At this moment, there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are lonely, some are having good company, some hate the world, some live life to the fullest, some are lying to others, others are just learning to face the truth. Some have found new love, others are heartbroken. Some are moving on, others are still holding back. Some bitch about others and some are good, struggling with the bad. Some are loved, and some have lost love. Some fall in love and others fall out of love. 6 billion people in the world. 6 billion souls. And sometimes, all you need is one :)
You know, it brings tears to my eyes seeing old couple hoding hands ;')
I'm Awesome
I don't regret anything from my past, no matter how bad it seems in hindsight, because every little step I took was leading me right where i am now :)
